Thursday, May 11, 2006

Vila i frid farfar

En vers för farfar följer,

Kent - Elite

Min släkt är full av hjältar
Decennier av slit
Brustna hjärtan, trötta leder
Deras stolthet bar mig hit
Nu är dom gömda bakom stjärnor
Vid vintergatans kant
Dom är glömda men dom talar
Genom pennan i min hand
Och dom bar mig ända hit




Farfar kommer från småland. Jag lägger med lite bilder för att komma ihåg hur vackert det är där. Jag har varit där min fars släkt bodde tills pappa var 2 år innan de flyttade till Värmland. Jag skriver detta på svenska, annars kan inte farfar läsa. Engelska är farfar lika bra på som jag är bra på kinesiska. Inte för att jag tror att farfar kommer läsa detta, men det finns så mycket konstigt som händer och har hänt så jag tar chansen (och undviker risken att skriva på engelska). Jag kände knappt min farfar, men släktband är starka. Ens ursprung är en av sakerna man kan luta sig mot när allt annat faller samman. Det är starkt. Jag hoppas du får det fint var du än är farfar. Hoppas det ser ut som småland och har en radio som du kan lyssna på nyheterna på som du alltid gjort. Farväl farfar, jag är ledsen att jag inte kan komma på begravningen, men inte tänker jag på den mindre för det. Jag tar avsked på mitt egna sätt. Kram.



And now i'm gonna make an attempt to translate the lyrics to english:

My family is full of heroes
Deceniums of struggle
Broken hearts, tired joints
Their pride carried me here
Now they are hidden behind stars
At the edge of the Milky way
They are forgotten, but they speak
Through the pen in my hand
And they carried me all the way here

For you who have no idea what this post was about, it's about my grandpa. He recently died and it just felt better writing it in his and my native language.

Sunday, January 29, 2006

Pepsi Land


Netherlands?



Pepsi?



I just realized today that I live in a country with a flag in the same colors of pepsi (COPYRIGHT???) and quiz shows for retarded people on goverment controled television.

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

the bigger the better

I like to think. I haven't had a real opertunity to think in a while. Some of the palces where I think best is probably on my way back home from something in my car. Some pretty neat stuff can come out of those rides. Anyway. I found what i really like. I really like passion. People who live and breath what they do. I don't mean someone going to some school and will be happy to get a job that involves this he/she's studdying. I mean people with real passion. I'm reading this book now about Linus Torvalds. If you didn't know yet he's the man who created linux, a free open source operating system for personal computers. He spent his first 18-20 years in his room. This was not so much out of passion, just antisociality. However, he spent an awful lot of time creating this stuff that interested him so much he gave up any social life (or maybe he was such a looser he couldnt have one) or any other stuff we call joy in this life. He found his passion, he's still doing it and on top of it all he's making big bucks while doing that. I don't know why I just wrote this, I guess I just want same kind of passion too. What I hate most though, is people like myself who can't really hang on to something, or faking passion. I pretty much gave up on my studdies, I've started tons of small projects with programming but they never turned out good cause I dont have the motivation. I do wonder what will happen to people like me. What I fear is that we just take normal jobs and become the working mass that i despise. But its really a turnoff with this insecurity so im just gonna keep on thinking im the best guy alive, just because its me. Well, at least I got the best lass out there...(but thats another story) <3

It is hard not getting insecure in all this though. There are so many people that are better than yourself, educated, nice car, more muscles.. you know all the stuff.. It's very easy to think you are not enough. It's also easy to dig yourself down in. The key, I think is to know that you can create your own thing, and happyness within that. If people just dont think you're enough in any way you can just turn the other cheek on them, cause you dont need stuff like that in your life. That's my advice of the day.

Step by step, live long.

Thursday, December 08, 2005

I love my sweetie very much!

Ciao,
Luc x

a reason

Heya.

This time im not really bored while writing. Ive kinda switched the boredom to tiredness. For you who still don't know it, i now have a job. My title is Technical support agent and the company is called stream. The way stream works is that it takes care of other companys support. The biggest company we/they support right now is called Adobe. You might know of photoshop... Anyways, Im still in training so I haven't officially started yet. I think the training is gonna go on for another week, but things are a bit unsure. There are many other swedish people people working at that place. 2 other swedish guys started the same day as me and for the same thing. They are really nice guys. One is called Mattias and has rasta-hair and is a music kinda guy. He also running linux. The other one is called Anton and is studdying art. I think it was called "audio-visual art". There are 3 already working at Tech support and a bunch others at the customer support as well. I would estimate it to about 10-12 swedes total. So, its now the end of the third week and Im not anyway near bored. I think its gonna be good to start with the real work too.

These weeks has been full of traveling and Adobe programs. The trains are really crappy so they are more than often late and both fridays i've been home later than 20:00 because of delays. Let's hope that tomorrow is different... oh wait im not going home tomorrow. Im going to a concert with Lucca, Dantje, Nic, Jitske and more. In Leiden, im sure its gonna be cosy.

Another thing that comes up when you talk with other Swedish people is of course why we are here and the differences we've come to notice about this new land. One thing is sinterklaas, which we dont have at all in Sweden. It's basically the same as santa claus, just that he comes from spain(?!) which is weird cause he has the same beard as santa and as far as I know Spain is warm as hell. Then he got helpers. The difference from santa is that those are "Piets", black people who helps the lazy big white man. I think those Piets have a background from beeing black slaves, but no one says that, they are now officially chimney-divers. Another thing that's really different from Sweden is the amount of foreign people (well, ok Im foreign too, but I mean people with a bit more "exotic" touch). Especially in Rotterdam and my old home town, Den Haag, there is a large concentration of people from Turkey, Marocco and Surinam. This is of course due to the colonial times and its very noticable if you're not used to it. When I get back home for christmas I will notice it even more, Im sure.

Mattias, my swedish travel companion (Leiden) and co-worker is also a linguist (sp?), as in knows a lot about languages. Its really interesting and fun to talk about. It also involves a lot of history which is my main subject from the teachers education. He makes very interesting analyses over speaking dutch and we make some tests on some words that are very hard for either us swedes or for the dutch people to say. The reason seems to be that you make your own language like a template for learning another one. When you learn another language you hear what you are used to in your own native language and then you speak with an accent of the new. The reason people have a hard time letting that go is because they never hear the difference when they say a word in the new language. But of course, practise over time makes it better.












Another "new" thing is Dune. If you dont know what that is, its a science-fiction series made by Frank Herbert in the 1980's. There is also a game series for the computer. Anyways I have always seen it in the library and wanted to read them. Now I have time on the train and I got the first book last weekend. I really like it. I played the game a lot a couple of years ago and I regret not taking the latest one with me here. Anyways...

So.. christmas is comming up. Still have a lot of presents to buy. Gonna make that in the weekend. At least that's the plan.

hugs on yah all.
Mika

Saturday, November 26, 2005

handschoenen

Hello..

Today for once im not that bored while writing. Actually I have to go to bed soon to not get a bad rythm. And why is that? Well if you haven't heard yet, i finally got a job. This job was in my hands 4 months ago too but I turned it down because I thought I would be able to find something a bit closer. It's 1.5h travel time to my work, and that's on the limit for what I can take. For now its going good (or well not really, but I'll get back to that) because the "work" is really nice. What Im doing now is really learning all the products I'm gonna support later on. My role is to help people if they have trouble with our software. The software company is called Adobe and make design products. You might have heard of Adobe Photoshop. Anyways it's training now and its no taking calls or emails just yet. As far as I know the training is gonna be at least 2 more weeks. But its fine cause its nice to know those programs. I will take calls in Swedish, Danish, Norwegian and English. Mostly the first and the last of them. The people using these programs are usually design people within a small company. So I really dont expect people to be totally lost like on the support my friends back in Sweden has while troubleshooting for an internet provider. I have actually taken two calls already. We had a bit of a chaotic start cause the trainer is going on vacation and we were just stationed to listen with the other guys on their calls. So I took a pair of calls and it was fine. People are thankful for the help and really not as annyoing as you might expect.

So I have now worked for one week and I'm still alright. If you didnt know already, we had some nasty weather here thursday (or was it friday). Well, for various reasons (like people beeing tired of their lifes (or just likes to jump in front of trains) and roofs falling down in the train stations) I was late the last two days in this week. Yesterday Lucca's dad actually had to get me with car from Den Haag HS because the train didn't went thru Rijswijk. I was home.. well close to 20:00 I think or even later. But apart from that I like having something to do, with the bitter after taste of comming home a bit late.

Today we were celebrating the birthday of Lucca's grandma (a few days late). We ate at some restaurant in Den Haag and it was cosy as usual. We did the same thing in March (I think) at the same restaurant. I don't know if you ever eaten indonesian food but some stuff is really hot. After eating what I thought was gonna be sweet fruit i almost got a cough attack with burnmarks in my mouth. The rest of the meal I avoided eating everything red. But its really nice, if you just know how the stuff tastes before you eat it so you know it wont hurt you :)

Btw, the word of yesterday was "handschoenen" (gloves). That means hand-shoes and made me laugh.

Friday, November 11, 2005

Void

So, another post when I'm bored. I just got quake3 to work on my pda which was yesterday nights mission. It failed last night and I had to hard reset the pda to get it to work again. Ah blah it needed a cleanup anyways. I'll attach a picture here with the result.

Other than that geeky stuff, Lucinda has been away for some days now. A studdy trip to Antwerpen. I know it was fun cause she has been going out for three days in a row now. Studdy trips... arent they wonderful? ;) Anyways, Im gonna go pick her up at R'dam C in a while.

What else is on the board.. well I have a work interview on monday which Im a bit excited about. They liked the test results and the CV was fine too apparently. So far so good. Last time I was at the interview I was not this motivated. It was a really long trip and it just sucked, the company seemed alright but I have to keep some standards when it comes to getting there. Im gonna spend a whole lot of time on the rails, so its a big deal.

Christmas is comming up, or at least in my mind. I usualy dont think about christmas until 20 dec when its really way to late to get any good of gifts cause you just need to get them fast, but this time im going home and I have to find all gifts and stuff before that so it freaks me out a bit, even in mid november.


I watched war of the worlds one night here. It sucked. It was like half life 2 except for that in half life 2 it fits better and is not so over the top with invasions. Yea, and Half life 2 is probably the best game I've played to date. At least singleplayer. I'd love a good mod to that game that is NOT counter-strike or any ww2 shit. ITS SO 1999! A cool mod that would keep the combine idea but make the weapons better balanced than in Deathmatch and make teamplay a great factor. But yea the movie sucked, just to predictable and sucky.

Now off for some Half Life 2... damn its addictive...and lovely. Its so... autumn, and thats fitting.

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

het herbst van een lefen


Q: Do you miss her?
A: Sometimes, well not really.

Q: Will you miss her?
A: Yes, and I will have regrets.